im just super bored now.i have no clue what to do.so ya.thought of blogging(:
i feel sad.i guess its because of someone's nick.it says that my friend has got someone else to cheer friend up.that someone makes friend laugh.yes.i guess its a good feeling to actually know that my good friend has got a nice friend to cheer friend up.but at the same time,i find myself worthless.i dont find any other reasons as to why i should live.okok.
i shall get over all these sad things.ugh.i hate it.

went to buy raya shoes with family except for kak ida,but together with nyai,without kak piyah. firstly went to bata.bought kak ida's and yana's shoes.i found out that the shoes were too ugly(: so went to another shop.darling i think.haha.nice name(: DARLING<3 i saw this black sweet flats.but guess what my mum said? "its too flat la".like DU-UH.i was so bloody pissed la.well,FLATS was my point.i WANTED them.and she was like...pointing to hills.i was like.tsk.i wanted flat.i wanted to cover my legs.tsk.and still,she insisted on hills.i was so bloody pissed that i walked out of the shop.and seriously,i've never been able to stand her voice.really.then went to another shop.i saw FLATS again.but i insisted on being nice,and kept myself from being frustrated and telling her that i wanted them.so therefore,i saw this hills that covered my legs.i just picked it,without caring of the design,chose the best colour,and asked one for my size.and i felt so bloody not-in-the-mood as soon as i stepped out of the shop.hahh.it was such a WONDERFUL day to actually go to some shopping mall with my ____ mother,and get something for the SAKE of PLEASING her.bloody shit la.i just cant control my temper.tsk.its like...i just HAVE to listen to everything SHE says.and its like...a MUST.you'll never be able to insist on YOUR behalf to please HER.you cant argue with her.hah.
hell.
i wanna go buy my own flats.i want the one that i saw at DARLING.the black colour one.tsk.i just think that it suit me perfectly.i look SO older when i go put on the hills that i bought.tsk.i just think that i wont be wearing it much.coz i dont like it.i love kak ida's flats.it looks so sweet la.tsk.and its simple.the black colour one that i saw,when i showed it to abah,he would surely say that "no..cannot..its too simple".tsk.liike...THATS my point.i love simple things.tsk.
the moral of this thing.is..dont go shopping with adults.coz they wont understand.
well,ya.that is,if you think that the adults dont know your taste,and expect you to take one that pleases him/her.
hahh.
imagine me,one day,going out with my friends,and brought home this flats that i bought,and its simple.and its black.and there are a few strings on it,colourful ones.yeah.im SURE to get scoldings from both my parents la.hah.but know what im gonna say?"i bought them already.so i'll wear them".hahh.that's my mum's motive of buying things.you buy it,you wear it.and obviously,if i were to have those flats,i'll put on the flats MORE often,compared to THOSE hills.haah.
tell me im nice.
im just pissed.with people who dont understand my taste.
hahh.
bloody shit.

yana and hakim left for school already.and its like...there wont be anyone at home.i mean,people who entertain me.its gonna be so bloody boring la.well,ya.with no one and with nothing to do.cant be expecting me to actually use the computer throughout the whole day right.my grandma would be like "iqah eh..dari tadi pakai computer aje." i dont want her to say that ANYMORE.makes me feel SO bloody guilty la.

i wanna go out and have fun with atiqah<3.but i dont know whether she's at home or not.sigh. i just need to go out of home.and get some fresh air.hahha(: oh sigh.training starts next week onwards.tsk.oh.forget about being tired.think about not having to stay at home the whole day(: haha.okay.im trying to learn how to think positively okay((: i guess i really need to think positively.it makes me feel so...POSITIVE :Dhaha.okay.shut up.i know im lame la okay(:

i think i shall start on my homework now(:
i wanna change myself,well,ya.for the better(:
and also,MOST importantly,
to stay straight forever:D